Are we there yet?

Life is a journey, that’s what they say.

When I was about 8 or 9, I clearly remember going on different trips with my mom. Aside from her regular job, she used to do a side business of buying and selling, and we would go to different places for her to purchase items that she could resell to different clients. And being the youngest child, she would always take me with her while my eldest sister was left at home with my brother. We would go to different markets in Manila, and in some occasions to different provinces away from the city. And I’ve always enjoyed it! My young mind would be repeatedly fascinated by these trips, these adventures. I enjoyed looking at new things, exploring new places, and watching and observing different people. I don’t recall getting bored on these trips, nor asking my mom, “Are we there yet?” I’ve always just went with the flow of the travel, enjoyed the new things that I saw, and settled with satisfaction at home when the trip is over. This ingrained love of exploration and seeing new places  was carried on up to now that I’m a grown up 52-year-old. Every year, I always look forward to our travel to Hawaii, and one of my more fun adventures was when Mike, Baxter, and I went on a road trip to Montana in 2017. At the end of all these travels, I always come out learning something new - either about my spouse, other people, places, or even myself.
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I don’t think life is “a” journey because I believe that life is a consolidation of small journeys, a series of purposes and fulfillments. I used to believe that to get to my one true destination, I have to stop being gay. Now I realize that that journey is past which purpose was to prepare me for where I am now. Thankfully, God opened doors and steered me to a path where I can worship and fellowship with people while being true to myself. So for now, this is one of my journeys - to serve God through CGS and the choir ministry. I always believe that every time the choir gathers and sings to create music, we are embarking in a small journey together to fulfill a common purpose, and the experience will teach us something that will help us in our next task and adventure. We are all going through a similar course with the Corona virus situation now that the shelter-in-place order has been extended. But I am certain that sometime in the future this too will end, fulfilling its purpose, and with God’s grace, a new and different path will be opened. It is, however, up to us what lesson we’ll take away from it. “Are we there yet?”